Diddy's Baby Mama Speaks!

In the December issue of Essence magazine, Kim Porter is interviewed along with her boyfriend Sean “Diddy” Combs about their on-and-off-and-on again relationship that has produced one son, Christian, and forthcoming twin daughters. Essence senior writer Jeannine Amber gets both Porter and Diddy to open up about the rapper’s affair with Jennifer Lopez.

Here’s an excerpt:

“Everywhere I went, people were asking, ‘Are you okay?’ I just hated that,” Porter says, over a bowl of squash soup during a three-hour lunch at a French bistro in Manhattan. Dressed in black leggings and a striped sweater, and wearing very little makeup, Porter is more stunning in person than in any red-carpet shot.“People just believed everything they saw in print, and
they were talking to me like I was really crushed,” she continues, “But I had just
had a baby. I couldn’t be somewhere in a corner heartbroken. I have kids. I’m a grown woman.”

Even Porter’s mother, Sarah, was amazed by her daughter’s calm in the face of such commotion. “The whole family was upset about the situation with Lopez,” she says. “You hear rumors, and you see things on television. And if your daughter is involved, you want to know if she’s hurting. But Kim didn’t fall apart. She didn’t stop eating; she didn’t do any of that. She behaved normally. As her mother I was checking her out all the time, looking and watching to see if she was putting on an act. But she’s very resilient; she handled it like a champ, even though I knew she must have been hurting. I was so very proud of her.”

At the time, Porter and Combs were living together. But as soon as she caught wind of the Lopez affair, Porter kicked her man out (“of my own house,” Diddy points out
indignantly) and changed the locks. “I told him someone’s got to go, and it isn’t going to be me and these kids,” she remembers. Combs moved into a hotel but ignored Porter’s wishes to be left alone, continuing to stop by the house whenever he pleased.

“It was like my life was not my own,” says Porter. “He was very, very intrusive.” The couple would eventually end up in the Manhattan Family Courthouse to hash out a visitation agreement, which Combs admits he did not stick to. “He would say
he needed to see his son, but I was at a place where just the sight of him would turn my stomach,” Porter recalls. “My feeling was, you made this decision, now stay over there. I can’t repeat everything I said at the time, because it’s really not that ladylike. But I was very expressive about it.” In fact, she reluctantly admits that one day she got so angry she threw a television at Combs. “It was a small one,” she says.
As Porter recounts this story of betrayal, she smiles politely, every bit the sweet southern girl.

The only glimmer of venom you’ll see is when you ask if Combs ever took their young son, Christian, around Lopez. “No,” she bristles. “Hell no! No. No. No. Do you see me? I’m a full black woman. We don’t mix and mingle like that. I’d kill him dead. So he knew better. And besides, does she look like the type that would want to play house and family with two little black kids? No. I don’t think it was that type of situation.”